In the midst of it

So today I learned that our last IUI (IUI#3 with clomid) did not work-
and I promised myself that if this cycle did not work out, I would start a blog as a place to talk about the weirdness that is this in-between place of wanting something so badly, but also not being able to make a difference in the outcome by working harder, or learning more, or hoping with more of my heart.

We are now officially on the IVF journey.
One cycle.
January.
The hail mary pass.