feeling stressed and sad, and knee-deep (heart deep) in slogging emotional transition stuff. And August stuff. Not my highest and best. Right now it is cloudy, and suddenly soft. The flowers are all aglow in the garden. I am procrastinating here by the keyboard. Boxes to be filled stand open and ready. But I'm not. Not yet.
Here is a lovely photo of sleeping Della from yesterday. She was sound asleep on mom. And I totally get that. Right now I would like to crawl into a warm safe lap, curl up, held and safe, and sleep for a while.
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Hey, did you just post this? I just commented on your previous post, let me cut-and-paste it (also let me say I assume you're moving to Maine and maybe Portland, forgive me if I'm wrong...):
Hey Kate...
I am a reader from Portland Maine, maybe you remember me from a previous comment or two? My name's Hilary. I don't know if you are living in Portland, but if you are, we should get together. My daughter is 11 months old, and we live in the Munjoy Hill neighborhood. If you reply to this reply I can give you an e-mail address. I will also try to find an e-mail address for you on the blog. There is a really great community of moms and babies here, as I'm sure you are realizing (if in fact you're here in the Portland area!). At any rate let me know,
yours
H
She's so beautiful. I'm sorry you are going through this rough time.
I'm so sorry everything's so hard, and that all this hard stuff has to be happening in August, besides, is just too much. Your girl is lovely, and you are, too. Be gentle with yourself, my KateFriend. You're all in my thoughts during this difficult time.
The good news is that this particular brand of upheaval won't last long. Whether it is replaced by different upheaval or calm I can't say.
Good luck with the move!
I'm sorry that you're having a hard time, friend. I wish I could help. :/
Della is scrumptious!
Moving sucks and these circumstances are really hard.
It will pass eventually, but I am sure you know that.
Della is so beautiful. There is nothing like a sleeping child on one's chest. aaah.
Deep breaths in and out!
Hey Hilary! No idea how to reply to a comment, except to post my own-- icantwhistle at yahoo dot com will get to me-- Moving to Peterborough NH, 10 min north from our current location. Maine was a summer relocation only since my husband worked up there (and will until sept-- then he comes back south)-- In some ways a total relocation might have been easier since the world turning itself upside down makes perfect sense when in a totally new location surrounded by new things and unknowns. This relocation feels more dreamlike and surreal-- too many familiar details in an otherwise consuming upheaval. Just enough DIFFERENT to be totally off balance and uncomfortable to my core.
Thank you for reaching out, you're such a kind commenter. And please, write anytime.
-Kate
Della is so beautiful! I know how rough moving can be. We moved to Florida 4 years ago....from our home in Michigan. We were leaving all of our family, friends, and the home we built together. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do! It does get easier in time....I wish you the best!
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