12 April 2010

Size 6, my ass. Not.

11w 1d.
Still quite mired in the pooped-out-holy-crap-my-arms-are-leaden experience of early pregnancy. Intense feelings of crapiness, but again, no better reason in the world.

Wore maternity jeans all weekend which felt like pure bliss.
Fit note: old navy, WTF? thanks for taking my very clearly always size 10 kateness and making me a maternity size 6. Makes for much sending of stuff back and forth. Size 6 my ass.
But the shirts? TINY. silly tiny. doll tiny. not sure what is up with that. gave up with old navy tops.
The jeans, boot cut, low, worn in feeling/looking, stretchy but not messy, $25. I bought short, I am 5'4".
Found one great, basic t-shirt at gap online, a little tight in the arms but how great to tent over The Belly-- basic V neck with stretch, short sleeve, comes in 3 colors (knock yourself out gap)-- black, white, and kelly green. I got white. 12.50. Ordered another. The long sleeve version is only available in black and white and not white in my size (M). SO help me, if I were independently wealthy, I'd design and sell basic clothes in many colors. They have a cute overstiched u neck t-shirt in great colors-- a great purple-- whose fabric is so clingy and thin that you can see the details of my inny belly button without trying. Not recommended unless you are into that sort of thing. Soft soft soft, but dang. 19.50. Might sleep in it.

Since I am not out at work yet, I do this trick with an elastic band on my ordinary pants-- around the button through the button hole twice and back around the button. I know that soon I will not be doing that second wrap through the hole-- it is easy, simple, works, stretches since The Belly grows during the day, shrinks back over night....

Started worrying about the little one for no good reason other than it has been a week since my last reassuring glimpse and I am feeling so worried about my heart should anything bad happen-- I feel *almost there*, almost into the second trimester-- just a few more weeks, right? But being almost there makes me fear the universe's cruelty. I know you know what I mean.

I have a tilted uterus, so now, at week 11, do you think I might have luck with a doppler? Or should I wait? Anyone out there similarly tipped who can advise?

And spring! magnolia buds are cracked open enough to see pink...
frost due tonight though
peas to plant in a sunny spot on the south side...
things are greening up, budding out, maples dropping their red blossoms... the sun is warm even when the wind is cold like today-- it feels hopeful, it really does.

the other morning the sky was moving so fast, clouds whipping by up there, holes of blue dragged across behind the trees.... it always amazes me when the sky moves like that and I am sitting in stillness, trees at rest, no roaring wind.

I miss my magical hikes, but they are inherently darned strenuous for fit-not-pregnant kate, so they are off-limits until I have the little one in a pack-- I look forward to maybe trying yoga again soon (I cut out everything since all of my energy has been simply gone)-- but now, psychologically I am feeling ready to move, at least a little, and I hope my body begins to want to too....

Sorry I've dropped so low and have been so quiet and so off-line- I hope to resurface soon. But for now, quiet, low, slow all seem to be necessary not optional.

16 comments:

Minta said...

Just a note on the doppler and clothes... I also have a tilted ute and am so not a six (more like 26) and was able to hear baby on a Hi-Bebe 2mhz doppler around 13.5 weeks.

Clothes... Motherhood Maternity is where I've had the best luck with 1) cheap and 2) variety. Then again finding anything in a 2x/3x is hard in maternity gear pretty much anywhere else.

Michelle said...

Sounds like you need a bella band. They make an inexpensive one for Target called a Be Band... it allows you to wear your regular pants much longer into pregnancy, and offers some great support too.

What IF? said...

So good to hear you sounding hopeful and taking it easy. There's a lifetime of vigorous hikes and yoga and whatnot ahead, but for now slow sounds good. Slow sounds safe. Slow preserves your precious energy for baby growing.

Hoping the tranquility sticks around for the remainder of your pregnancy. Thinking of you and quietly smiling about the fact that you're having the opportunity to post about your expanding belly and maternity wear. LOVE IT!

Lara (NoodleGirl) said...

Oh yea, Old Navy maternity sizes are totally wack! I've had to ship things back and forth a few times already. But I can't complain about them too much - their maternity stuff is actually reasonably priced as opposed to the highway robbery I see everywhere else.

As for tilty - I am one too! And it did make it harder for the Doppler to pick up the h/b, even at the OB's office until about 13 weeks. Once I passed 13, it seems that my uterus had gotten big enough that it straightened out and from then on, I had no problem picking it up.

So, if I were you, I might wait a week to order and then have it ready on hand @ 13 weeks. You might drive yourself crazy with worry if you try too soon.

This is the one I order, $65 from Ama.zon and I've been very happy with it:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B002ZHTVEM/ref=oss_product

And finally, I can second that the Be Band at Target is awesome! I have one in black and white, I think they were about $16 each. It definitely helps you continue to wear your regular pants until about 16-17 weeks and after that, sometimes I like to wear for support or so that there's not an unsightly gap between my shirt and skirt, it just looks like layering. :)

Lara (NoodleGirl) said...

Also - I forgot to mention, make sure to get ultrasound gel if you get a monitor - you don't need the fancy stuff, even Astrog.lide works great. But without the gel, sometimes I can't even pick up the h/b now, at 19 weeks. As soon as I apply the gel, I find it in 2 seconds!

Jamie said...

I had great luck with Target's knock-off Bella band. I wore it and my regular pants until 6 months. Very comfy and much more flattering than most maternity pants.
Tops are another story...I have yet to find a top that fits my small shoulders and bust AND my enormous belly. I feel like the guy at the ballpark that ate one too many hotdogs. You know, the guy who has the bottom 4 inches of his pot belly showing between his pants and t-shirt. Totally me right now.

alyssa your whorish friend said...

um... how to say this. i weigh 25 pounds more than you do, at last meeting. AND i wear a size 6-8 at old navy (which translates to a 10/12 back in the 80s, 14 in the 60s. which means my grandmother, a woman we always thought was fat, was not. but i digress)

and i use the rubberband trick all the time and i'm not pregnant, but that the thickest waist known to man.

just saying

karen alonge said...

I am loving reading this kind of news from you, my friend.

maybe you can just give your body permission to move itself slowly and gently however it wishes during a floor session at home if you don't feel quite ready yet to head to yoga class? I find that even five minutes of free movement feels wonderful to me ...

xo

meinsideout said...

i have a tilted ute - and I heard them at 11 weeks - good for you for buying mat clothes - so happy for you!

sprogblogger said...

Bella bands rock. (wearing one right now!) My tilted ute 'straightened out' at about 12 weeks, and it's been easy to find the heartbeat ever since. It was almost impossible before that - of course, I'm a bit chubbier than you are, so...

Also, Target sells good decent maternity tops that are comfy without being see-through. I got a few basic t-shirts in basic colors and I've been happy with them so far.

have I said lately how delighted, thrilled & otherwise beside myself with happiness I am that we're going through this at the same time? COULD NOT BE HAPPIER FOR YOU!!!

Kate said...

Try the doppler if you want, but don't freak if you don't find the baby. Best sign is the growing belly!

Baby Smiling In Back Seat said...

That first hike will be just glorious with a little one on your back.

K said...

Hi. Still here reading. Still so very happy for you.

agoodic said...

Also - I forgot to mention, make sure to get ultrasound gel if you get a monitor - you don't need the fancy stuff, even Astrog.lide works great. But without the gel, sometimes I can't even pick up the h/b now, at 19 weeks. As soon as I apply the gel, I find it in 2 seconds!

Nic said...

Just checking in, hope you are well.
The elastic band trick sounds great idea.
x x

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