I slept badly, briefly, woke hourly except for 4, stayed awake for long times in between, awake awake. Watched the stars like time lapse photography, watched the moon rise, watched orion make his way across the clearing, watched the sky lighten, watched my brain roar with one little dream loop with minute variations-- hospital, waiting, reading a menu of options...
Today I have a string of dr appointments starting at 11 but will update this evening unless, you know, I'm busy.
I'm ok when it is daytime, but night brings worries.
The maybe plan has been discarded for when the doc says induce we will do it then. Until then, walking, raspberry tea, time, patience.
I'll let you know how that goes.