01 October 2009

a billion bright green parakeets

hey there, it's me, kate. Remember me? small, fuzzy redhead with voracious unfulfilled appetite after 5 days of salad in the land of pancakes cookies bread and cheese.

Work has gone very well, but it was a long intense week and I am done done done.

Did not pee on a stick and will not. It feels too lonely and too far away. Uterine sensations have me alternately feeling hopeful and hopeless. Period due tomorrow. Temp still up today, Tomorrow's flight home from here is going to be so early I am not sure if I will temp or not.

Hope progesterone keeps my period at bay at least until I am safely home.
But more than that, I hope the miraculous whateveritis that helped K get her great wonderful fabulous positive will waft on over here and bestow some upon me too.

my heart feels so horrid knowing this hoperide might be over soon, but wanting so much to hold on a little longer.

Beta saturday either way.
I hope I get to go knowing something good.

the parakeets? no idea where they came from, but at dusk, they arrive in a million squadrons, and alight on some trees on an island here like the reverse of bats emerging from a cave-- stunningly cacophonous and violently green.


K said...

Thinking many, many, many, many happy thoughts for you for Saturday and for safe travels home.

Sprogblogger said...

A safe journey to you, and I hope - a billion billion little feathered parakeets worth of hope - that you have every reason to be delighted on Saturday.

B. said...

More hope headed your way from my corner of the universe. I hope the traveling goes smoothly and you have reason to smile the biggest most wonderful smile on Saturday.

Pundelina said...

And even more hope from over the sea. Thinking sticky growth thoughts your way.

(I was so hopeful when I saw you had posted that you would be showing off peesticks too.)


Barefoot said...

Congrats on finishing up a tough week! I am sending lots of hopeful thoughts your way.

Anonymous said...

Glad to hear that your week went well. I am sending good wishes and happy thoughts your way. Wonderful that your temp is still up. Despite what all the docs say, I think BBT (in the absence of outside factors such as colds and hormones) is an incredibly reliable method.

Have a safe flight home.

alyssa said...

sending good thoughts and love in your direction

ps: monk parakeets. the squawk. they're amazing. like you.

Anonymous said...

Safe travels - and I am so, so hopeful for you.

Billy said...

Crossing my fingers for you!

Nic said...

Keeping everything crossed for you. Really hope that you get your BFP

Mo and Will said...

what a beautiful image. Am thinking of you still and sending positive thoughts.


Grade A said...

Hoping and wishing for a positive, Kate. I really hope your stars have aligned.


Joannah said...

I was just thinking about you today, and hoping for good news.


IVF 40+ said...

good luck Kate! Whatever happens you have the glorious 8 always.
Safe travels and welcome home..

Kate said...

Good luck on Sat! Hope your dreams come true.

Mad Hatter said...

Thinking of you on your journey home and your journey to conception...Wishing wishing wishing wishing wishing wishing!

karen alonge said...

every time I think of you my friend, that song from the Fame soundtrack plays in my head. so I'm singing the body electric, and celebrating the you yet to come, and knowing there is good news on the horizon. xoxo

Anonymous said...

Ahhh... Kate! I used to live in the Netherlands and I'm hoping it's the place where your little one(s) to be has settled in for the long, long haul. I'm so hopeful for you....

Michele said...

I am so hoping for great news on Saturday! Please oh please oh please!!!

Safe travels! Please update on Saturday as soon as you know!

IF Optimist, then... said...

Wow. That sounds like the most extraordinary fairy tale. A surrounding cloud of colorful parakeets alight near the window to bring the soul of the child to their mother. What magic that would be. I wish it so strongly for you my head may fly away. Happy and safe journeys across the ocean and home to us.

Jenn said...

Missed you so much - I am praying your travels are easy and bring you home to serenity and a much deserved positive beta!

I have been thinking and praying for your lil ones Kate- All my positive thoughts, support and love to you my dear friend!

I promise to be back to my blog soon- gotta heal up a a bit more.


irrationalexuberance said...

This is a lovely post -- you are such a beautiful, evocative writer. Safe travels and best of luck this weekend

Elizabeth said...

Thinking of you tonight and tomorrow morning and hoping, hoping.

Where ever you went with the flocks of green birds, I think I want to go there some day too. Beautiful.

Love to you,

Pundelina said...

Lurking for your news and hoping it's happy.