I can't whistle: quick update

16 August 2010

quick update

All is well, no blood since saturday, but sheesh-

So sorry babysteps to hear of your scares too-- that simply sucks.

Yes my placenta is still very low and I have vasa previa which is scary but we'll look again next tuesday to see if anything moved--

Definitely the blood was from the bad/scary place not the back door, BUT (ha, I make myself laugh) I think it is most likely due to my very vascular-ly active state plus some skin irritation.....

Any little scratch bleeds like hell these days.

Contractions every 20 minutes yesterday had me on alert, but they've calmed down and never triggered the 5/hour alarm so.... I guess this is all just one big morass of constant vigilance, TP checking, and trying to be calm.

I had a wonderful day yesterday with baby movement, just exactly as often as I needed them (thank you baby!) and picked up a 70 year old bassinet that has been in the family for that many generations. Weird to see such tangible evidence of impending baby-ness.

Week 29, praise the gods/goddess/all-that-is.

Thank you all for your immense kindness. This is just so scary. HUMBLING.

Hot damn.

6 comments:

sprogblogger said...: SUCH a relief that everything's ok. Thinking of you, my dear (and loved the belly photo, even though I don't think my comment went through at the time.) You look fantastic, and I can't wait to meet your little one!; August 16, 2010 at 11:06 AM
Circus Princess said...: SO HAPPY to hear that all is well and that baby is kicking up a storm :); August 16, 2010 at 12:11 PM
Joannah said...: Whew! Glad everything is okay now.

:); August 16, 2010 at 3:38 PM
Michele said...: yay for week 29!! glad all is well so far and that the bleeding has stopped.; August 16, 2010 at 5:55 PM
Anonymous said...: I am so glad it stopped. I know how scary it is. So are contractions. But now that you are 29 weeks, the baby is very viable. Just breathe!!! And I know how thankful you are for baby movements.

takingbabysteps; August 17, 2010 at 9:08 AM
Anonymous said...: Hi,

Glad to hear you're doing well now! I've been lurking for a long time, feeling a part of this community without being "visible". Your blog (and others) has been a real support for me in my own TTC process. I wanted to send you an email but couldn't find any contact info.
I'm the same age as you & after a year of IUIs I'm moving on to IVF. Would you mind if I asked you a few questions about your experience?

Genevieve; August 18, 2010 at 10:33 AM

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I started this blog during struggles with infertility--struggles that resulted in countless IUIs, medications, procedures, 5 attempted IVF cycles, 2 pregnancies, one heartbreaking loss, and one miracle baby.

Parenthood left me feeling like I was not sure what to do here, with this amazing community. To talk about parenting felt boastful for those still and forever struggling. To not talk about it felt disingenuous. So here I am. I want to talk about my real life. Parenting. Midlife reassessment. Flailing. Finding myself. Mucking about.

So yes, I am a midlife parent of an amazing child.
Yes, I battled infertility and will be forever changed by every single moment of that journey.
I am imperfect and life is messy, but it is also so beautiful.

Among many other things, I hope to reconnect to myself through writing here. And I hope to connect with you too. Others out there, parenting maybe later in life. Maybe after struggling. Maybe struggling still. We can all use a safe place and a lot of compassion. That's what I am offering to you. I hope you'll stick around.

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"The key is, starting from the inside out. Often you say, “I don’t know what to do.” True, you don’t know what to do. There are infinite possibilities. And a bunch of them haven’t worked for you. A lot of them have been tried, and they haven’t worked under what you think are the same conditions. And so, you sort of pace around, you don’t know what to do. Sometimes you don’t even know what you want to have. But you always, you always, if you will stop and think about it, you ALWAYS know how you want to feel."

--Abraham