10 February 2010

Happy

We have two beautiful embryos, truly. The first time I have seen a photo--how totally magical.
Acupuncture before and after, felt like I was doing what I needed to.
The transfer sucked ass but then, they always do for me. The doc was wonderful (yes, Lara, it was your most wonderful doc!), the threading of the catheter through my cervix is always hell, and it was this time too. So maddeningly painful and I wish it were different. But it only was ok once and that was from someone who knew my cervix well....

But, all went well besides the threading, and we are just home a little while ago-- it was a long day away. It is dark now, but the new snow was so lovely and not too troublesome since it looks like only an inch or so and the roads were nearly empty of other cars.

I'm resting on the sofa and I feel so blissed out excited optimistic chemically positive that it is almost a rush in itself to just feel this way. Happy, one could say.
Yeah,
that.
I'm happy.

Holy crap people, I could get used to this.

I want to write deep things about context and hope but those can wait until tomorrow.
tonight, I am just going to marinate in feeling so damned good.

thank you so much for your kind wishes and support, everyone. It means so much to know you're hoping for me/with me.

25 comments:

meinsideout said...

Yes - that is awesome and sounds like it could not be better.

I will be rooting you on all the way.

Noelle said...

It sounds wonderful! I hope that you will experience something magical in two weeks!

musicmakermomma said...

Oh Kate, I'm so happy for you as we both gestate away... good luck hon!

Megan said...

I'm so happy all went well. I think transfer day is magical.

sprogblogger said...

Oh I'm so glad that things are going so well - and glad that you're marinating in happiness! You deserve it, and I'm looking forward to your beta like you wouldn't believe!!!

t said...

i'm so excited for you!!! squeezes coming your way from beneath this mountain of snow!

Mad Hatter said...

Mmmmmm - you and your embryos marinating in sweet happiness! Yay! I am so overjoyed for you in my little corner of the world - it's your time, my dear! Throwing a bucket full of wishes your way!
Love,
Maddy

P.S. Thank you for being such a soft shoulder to cry on. :)

Lara (NoodleGirl) said...

So nice to hear you're snuggling in, just as your embies are snuggling in. Thrilled to hear that you liked Dr. B but that even his magical powers could not make the transfer less painful. It's such a crapshoot whose cervix is cooperative or not. I know you consider it a small price to pay, but still, totally unfair.

I'll be sending you tons of go-embie-go vibes and looking forward to 2WW symptom analysis!

Congrats PUPO!

Baby Smiling In Back Seat said...

I am thrilled for your two embryos.

The embryo picture was my favorite thing about IVF (not that there were many things I liked). I like to imagine that my embryo pictures from IVF #2 are what Burrito and Tamale would have looked like if I'd been able to see them at that stage. Family resemblance, presumably, plus pretty much all embryos from all species look pretty similar at that point.

Hope this happiness continues through the whole week+ that you are PUPO.

Barefoot said...

Congratulations!! Thinking sticky thoughts for you.

Pundelina said...

Fantastic news Kate! I'm so glad you got to transfer both of them!!!

Enjoy being PUPO and I'm crossing my fingers that this time there's no 'proven otherwise'.

x

Anonymous said...

I'm so happy you're happy! Everything sounds wonderful. I missed you tonight but am so happy to hear things went well and you're home safely!

Love you,
Tammy

Anonymous said...

Keeping my fingers crossed for you! I'm glad my story gave you hope.
:)

irrationalexuberance said...

I'm so happy to hear that you are happy... seriously -- you can hear it in your post. I hope the happy continues.

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Michele said...

I am so happy for you... Just beaming with happy vibes for you and your two little ones.

Elizabeth said...

Yay for happy and for 2 blissful and beautiful embryos. I remember when I had acupuncture after my first transfer and the acupuncturist said: just think of it, chemically they must be so, so happy and relieved to be where they are supposed to be. A lot of happy going around sounds great. Love to you,
Elizabeth

IF Optimist, then... said...

I am so happy right now. I've got a big silly grin on my face.

I can imagine you relaxing with two little ones. Think happy snuggly thoughts to encourage those two magic beans.

Sending. So. Much. Love. To. You.

LT said...

I'm so happy that you're happy. Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for this 2ww :)

Jules a.k.a. Julie said...

Yay for two beautiful embryos. I hope one or both settle in for a long adventure. Lots of love,
Julie

Nic said...

2, thats great news!! I hope they snuggle in deep and stay for the whole ride! Keeping everything crossed.
Hope thei 2ww goes quickly and end in joy!
x

K said...

So happy your two are home with you. Wishing you the bestest, most positive sticky thoughts I can think of.

maxandzuzu said...

Good luck to you! Remember it only takes one!

T

Kymberli said...

I hope this is just the beginning of all the happiness that's yet to come.

Illanare said...

Congrats on a good transfer and sending you and the embies lots of "haning in" vibes.