We have two beautiful embryos, truly. The first time I have seen a photo--how totally magical.
Acupuncture before and after, felt like I was doing what I needed to.
The transfer sucked ass but then, they always do for me. The doc was wonderful (yes, Lara, it was your most wonderful doc!), the threading of the catheter through my cervix is always hell, and it was this time too. So maddeningly painful and I wish it were different. But it only was ok once and that was from someone who knew my cervix well....
But, all went well besides the threading, and we are just home a little while ago-- it was a long day away. It is dark now, but the new snow was so lovely and not too troublesome since it looks like only an inch or so and the roads were nearly empty of other cars.
I'm resting on the sofa and I feel so blissed out excited optimistic chemically positive that it is almost a rush in itself to just feel this way. Happy, one could say.
Holy crap people, I could get used to this.
I want to write deep things about context and hope but those can wait until tomorrow.
tonight, I am just going to marinate in feeling so damned good.
thank you so much for your kind wishes and support, everyone. It means so much to know you're hoping for me/with me.