First I want to apologize to anyone coming to the blog from the writing workshop this weekend-- I had a great time with so many meaningful and enriching and encouraging and inspiring moments-- and I loved meeting all of you. And I appreciate so much the support and sensitivity each of you showed when I told you of my journey. As you read my blog you will notice that I just found out I am pregnant after this last IVF in the days right before the workshop with my second test results coming as I was getting on the train. Please understand that I was too cautious to announce my pregnancy since it is so incredibly early, insanely early, not time to announce anything other than a fabulous beginning. So please do not feel misled or duped, I was just being careful- so if you are here, please know that it is hard to announce a pregnancy this early no matter what, and especially after a loss.
The workshop by Jen Lee was great. Truly. A very empowering and loving gathering of strong creative women. It will take days to process it all, but I am so glad I was brave enough to attend, and hopeful I have forged some connections that will last into the future. Jen Lee is pure magic, she just is. And I send love and appreciation to her and to the other women in the group, to Fatu and jen Lemen for their wonderful guidance. I feel very spoiled after days of storytelling and listening. I am full.
Speaking of connections,
I just met Sprogblogger and Mo and had the most wonderful time (major understatement). In case you are wondering, yes they are actually That Cool in real life, maybe even cooler. Beautiful, smart (no new news there, I know) and terrific company. How lucky am I?? VERY.
Thank you all so much for your happiness and ruckus making on my behalf. I am just moving outside of the 36 hour window of peace from the fabulous beta, and am relishing each fleeting wave of mini nausea.... tiny ones, here and there. More at night, more with empty belly. Tired and dark circled, my ligaments pull when I turn, and I just hope hope hope all is well in there.
A crinone question with TMI for sure so be warned-- every two or three days I have very copious wet discharge, clear, as if my body is trying to flush something out (sorry dad)--anyone else have this?
Still in NY tonight, back to NH tomorrow-- just feeling very grateful tonight for so many things-- for the pregnancy, for the workshop that was truly wonderful and for all of the stories and love and support and reminders of pieces of myself that I have missed for a long while, for my time with S and Mo, wonderful in every way except too short, my moment right now to be able to thank all of you-- I am so grateful for your support and wild whooping, to my sweet sister Sarah for posting to you while I was away (how cool was that??), and to my dear friend Alyssaa- I am perched on her sofa, at peace and at home in her company. Soon there will be Thai food. All is well.
tiny keyboard, no editing, happy to be able to say hello.