27 June 2010

22 weeks

22 weeks.
It was a day of contractions and wiggles and kicks and a nice long walk and a nice long lunch with a friend who is simply easy to be with... I laughed hard which was great, and it surprised me that it felt so unusual. I am a big loud laugher. And I guess the stresses of the past few weeks have made that a whole lot less likely, less easy- more of a surprise.

When things change, when I am in an uneasy transition like the one I have with work, I often lose touch with the parts of me that I like best. My big loud laugh, for example.
And I also lose touch with the things that help me feel grounded, help me stay present and centered, things that make me feel good. It's as if, in the melee, I simply forget what I know.

So today, time spent outside in the fresh air surrounded by trees, breathing, moving, talking.. and oh yes, laughing....
it feels so good to remember.



8 comments:

sprogblogger said...

Very glad you're remembering and laughing a big loud laugh! 22 weeks! Wow! Might not be laughing, but I've got a big old smile on my face for you and your darlin' and your little one. Thinking of you.

Kate said...

Sounds like a great day. Laughing hard does such a good job of relieving stress. Hope you can do it more often!
Wish the darn contractions would just leave you alone.

Nic said...

Pleased you are laughing and remembering. It is horrible how things get us down and we lose ourselves. Laughter is a great stress reliever and makes you feel so good inside.
X

KathyB said...

It was your lovely smile and most excellent laugh that drew me to your fire when we met in Brooklyn. So glad you found it again.
xo, KB

Sarah said...

The baby can hear and feel that amazing laugh. It is a good thing you found it again so it doesn't scare the diapers off that baby later on!

Illanare said...

I'm glad you had a good day, lovely Kate. I haven't stopped following your story, even though I haven't commented lately. Thank you for dropping by my blog and for your support.

Here's to more days of laughter.

Michele said...

So glad you are sharing your laugh with that sweet little one!!

Justine L said...

so glad that you had a good day, and that you reconnected with yourself and with the little life inside! I'm hoping that things continue to go well for you...