26 October 2010

-5...

So, wow, only 5 days until our estimated due date...
So, sometime in the next 12 days, we'll meet our little one.
You all were so kind in sending notes and comments about my worries yesterday- none are WORRIES, you know, except for the ever-present calamitous ones. But they make up some seriously unhelpful babble that makes me feel less and less ready, less and less competent. And really, I just need to let go, and get on with being/doing and less time worrying/thinking/speculating (ahhh not so easy to do though, eh?).

One new source of worry is that the baby is moving less big movements and that is freaking me out a little, but I know it is getting tighter in there, trust me, I know. It is quieter for longer, but then, it treats me to a few minutes of intense total bladder knocking baby-frenzy or alien movement. Right now, it is pressing up and down at the same time, and that makes me very happy.

My darlin' updated his blog last night if you'd like to hear his take on all of this. Even though we talk and talk, it is always fun to see what he has to say since it always gives me a little extra insight.

Progress? I had some very regular extra tight braxton hicks contractions last night for about an hour, then gone. Some pinchy cervix stuff that came and went, and today I feel like crap again, Very tired, iffy belly, just wanting to go back to sleep. And, in fact, I may give myself permission to do so.
(NOVEL IDEA)

But, because I am kate, I am going to give it a little while first; I'll finish my tea and to see if my fog lifts.

And now, back to work.

4 comments:

Dreams and False Alarms said...

Feeling like crap is a good sign. I think a lot of people feel that decreased movement before labor, if you would feel reassured by a non stress test, you could call your doc, otherwise, wait for the alien frenzy!

I really hope your little one is prepping to come out! It's so exciting!

Elle said...

Thinking of you every day....

Emily Erin said...

Sending good vibes... and if one were to want to e-mail you to get a physical address for a smallish present for a smallish person who will soon join your family, where might said someone e-mail you? :-D

Dreams and False Alarms said...

I'm showing up early for my countdown report, and I'm on the west coast! How are you this am?