Today was hard, we would have transferred today. I did not seek out things to make me blue, but I woke with it already in my heart. It is not awful, I have had some days now to get used to it. But it did make me sad.
Joannah asked me about acupuncture-- yes I am doing it, and yes it freaks me out a little (needles) but I really like the guy who is my practitioner and the needles are so fine that it is only truly uncomfortable once in a while. I started about 6 weeks ahead- maybe 8... and I will continue while we figure out what the hell we are doing. I canceled my appointment yesterday (my pre-transfer appointment) since I was simply not able to deal with it. But I will go tuesday as I have been.
Oh Maredsous, thank you so much for your comment and oh, I hate your outcome and I am so sorry. I wish we did not have this uncommon thing in common. This is so crazy. I wish on you complete and simple success in your next attempt.
Like so many of us on the heels of a failure, I've researched options, find myself considering things-- estrogen priming, DHEA, IVF in the Czech republic to save money, or an expensive round in Colorado where they have better luck with women over 40 than other clinics in the US-and do pre-transfer genetic testing (not an option at my clinic)... I am not quite to the point of smoking goat bile or whatever but I am all for chemicals and small needles
I mean heck, isn't that what IVF is all about?
Luckily, I'll talk with someone tomorrow at the Dr's office, and get some information on what's next, even if what is next is simply an appointment.