27 January 2010

juncos

I feel like shit.
New meds?
450 (a shotglass full) of follistim last night? (What a sucky shot).
No idea.
But I feel nauseous and really upsetbellied and bleary headed. Back and forth to the bathroom. Enough to be noticed. Cramps too, This kind and That kind.
Just
feel
yucky.

Tonight I will give the follistim in two shots not one. That big one sucked rocks. I was pretty sure I would pull the needle out and it would come out like a fountain. It didn't. But I do have a big bruise.

My other protocol was easier, I admit. I used the morning follistim to dilute the two menopur tablets, then took it all in one shot. A small one. .5cc.
Then at night, again, a bigger dose of follistim in the same volume to dilute one tablet of menopur. Another small shot.

This time, morning is menopur, two tablets, diluted with 1cc fluid. Not awful, but a bigger volume than I was used to. But lots of surface beading when I took the needle out (I took it out slowly).
And at night, 3 vials of follistim, which was one honking huge 2cc shot. Not again. I'll take two big shots instead. And if I can I may warm it in my hand first.
And of course the lupron gets its own shot.

Sorry to whine. It is what it is. It is not forever, it is just for now, and for a great cause. But shit. I wish I did not feel quite so thoroughly lousy.


Positive notes? Sprogblogger is totally sprogged up.
7 giant wild turkeys in the yard this morning (the cat just watched with awe as they dinosaured their way through the garden and into the woods). And snowbirds (juncos) ? 4 on the little magnolia out back. Cutest birds ever, deep gray except for white bellies and yellow beaks.

The stream is back below its banks and it is cold again, as it should be. It was a nice break, nice to breathe in springtime scents for a moment, but nice to be back to cold.

13 comments:

babyinterrupted said...

I had pretty strong cramps the past few days as well, but feeling better now. Hope that comes quickly for you.

I'm on 450 units of gonal-f, and every time I inject it, I think, "well, there goes $450." (Not that I had to pay for it, thanks to insurance, but still...yowza.) I have never paid so much money to create pain. :) All for a good cause, as you said.

sprogblogger said...

First off - thank you for your support. It means - very literally - the world to me.

Secondly - DAMN, it sounds like follistim sucks. Like a lot. I can't imagine suck gigantic injections, and night after night? You're a rock star, you know.

And I hope that it treats you a bit more gently tonight, because feeling yucky on top of everything else?

Let's just say you're handling it a lot more gracefully than I would be. Whiner that I am.

Thinking of you and juncos and morning mist.

meinsideout said...

I am so sorry that you are feeling so crappy. ((HUGS))

Barefoot said...

450 of folllistim? Yikes!

Hang in there. Thinking of you.

B. said...

Yikes- I'm sorry the stims are making you feel so lousy. And holy mackerel! Such big volumes of shots. You are a trooper! I hope this is just the initial shock of starting stims, not how you'll feel the whole while. Hang in there!

Michele said...

I'm sorry you feel so bad. :( That sucks!

Sarah and Family said...

But you are our bitchykate and who wouldn't be bitchy at this point for goodness sake. Could hardly bear to read that post. Dang.Ouch.

Nic said...

That is a lot of meds. I am sorry it is so much. You are doing great. The side effects are shit, but as you say it is not forever. Keep your eyes on the goal. I really hope that this bucket full of meds gives you the dream you deserve
Take care x

Illanare said...

I'm sorry you feel so yucky. It sounds horrible :-(

Baby Smiling In Back Seat said...

These days my cat is pretty nonchalant about birds outside, but I can't even imagine what she would do in response to wild turkeys.

You are on some high-dose FSH, lady! As crappy as you feel, take heart; it won't be long.

I always gave myself a big treat after FSH injections. Usually raw cookie dough, sometimes a brownie or cake. It definitely helped. Use this information as you see fit.

Maredsous said...

Hey, Kate,

Hang in there. Remember the goal. I know it is hard when needles are penetrating your skin, but it is all very short term in the scheme of things.

I guess we are cycling at the same time again and it is just about a year ago. Pretty weird. Wishing you the largest egg filled follicles.

musicmakermomma said...

sorry about the big nasty shots - but as everyone else has mentioned, if they do the job it will be worth it! I love big wild turkeys. We have a herd that comes through our property every morning. Our dogs are pretty much oblivious, which seems so weird to me.

Hope all these drugs do the trick!

Melissa said...

Yowzers! I can't imagine 450 of folllistim. Hang in there!!