14 January 2010

update

Thanks for understanding the need I have to follow my heart on this one, and while it is almost exciting (I am almost excited!), I also am checking out clinics and programs for DE and trying to figure out financing options. I found a place with a plethora of redheaded donors (Oregon?? No kidding!)-- For those in similar shoes, Sprogblogger's wondrous waffling worksheet that she has posted in a tab on her site is a fabulous thing-- You'll eventually come across the same info, but it is like getting a big-ole head start.

I want to cycle locally if I can for DE, use a clinic that has in-house donors rather than using a donor agency-- but I am not so sure that this combination will be possible. I am exploring shared risk programs, and wondering about shared egg programs... but... at this time, gathering gathering. I will try to make the choice that feels best to my heart and has the least uncertainty regarding costs since I need to know and plan, since that part freaks me out totally. So while I would like to be local for logistical reasons, if I need to travel to feel the most comfortable, I sure as heck will.

Meds arrive today from Ascend which have somehow improved since my last go-around with them. And my insurance paid for so much you would not believe so I am really lucky. Just under $200 for all of it.
This new protocol includes Mestinon starting sunday along with Lupron--, I'll be stimming with 150 menpur each morning and 450 follistim each evening... and this time I will take Medrol around the time of transfer (please please let there be many good things to transfer). This clinic does 3 day transfers for folks my age. Since I have gotten used to the sprint that is the antagonist protocol, it will be odd to know I could stim for much longer and I have to just breathe and know that unlike my familiar protocol, this one might actually work.

Worries? sure, oh yeah, yes. My only lupron cycle had NO EGGS at retrieval so I am a little (a lot) worried (neurotic) about that. But, overall, with these changes and attention to the details of my actual situation and history, I am curious about what will happen and, yeah, kind of excited in a very nervous sort of way.

Yeah, so, while there is a bit of worry, there is also a bit of excited. It has been a long time since I felt such a big clear Yes.


It could go without saying, I know, but I am keeping Haiti in my heart right now, and donated what I could yesterday via Yele Haiti. Sure makes a lot of my shite look like buttercups.

16 comments:

Illanare said...

I am so excited for you at the start of a new cycle. Will be keeping you in my thoughts throughout.

Barefoot said...

Thinking all sorts of good thoughts for you for this cycle, and also for your donor egg explorations. I'm so glad you're working with a clinic that's supportive of doing one more cycle with your eggs, just so you can know that you've explored that avenue to it's fullest extent.

Michele said...

Thinking warm thoughts... And thinking of those in Haiti as well.

IF Optimist, then... said...

Hi there lovely Miss Kate. Remember the antagonist protocol didn't work for me either, so "meh" on that one. It was the micro dose lupron that was the ticket for me. As for the cycle where they didn't retrieve any eggs, did they test your blood the previous day to make sure the HCG shot worked and was in your system? I was always curious about that. If for some reason you find lots of red-headed DE options in Seattle area, you have a place to stay here with your own room, bed, fluffy pillows and bath.

sprogblogger said...

So glad you're feeling good about this next step, and I can't wait to hear more!!! Energized Kate sounds so very good!

meinsideout said...

Sounding fabulous!!!

babyinterrupted said...

Hoping for good things for you! Thanks for stopping by my place.

finch said...

I hope good things come from your new protocol.

Elizabeth said...

Ummm. . .yay! This sounds so exciting and hopeful and I feel excited and hopeful for you. Wishing I were closer and could meet some of you in person and sending love,
Elizabeth

Mad Hatter said...

So happy the universe has given you a resounding YES!
Love,
Maddy

What IF? said...

So glad to hear you sounding hopeful and excited, even if it's with a healthy dose of hard-earned realism. Thinking of you tons, and hoping the new clinic and protocol will be just the ticket and your DE backup plan won't be needed. I'm all for day 3 transfers... :)

surrogacy said...

Your blog keeps getting better and better! Your older articles are not as good as newer ones you have a lot more creativity and originality now keep it up!

B. said...

Ditto what WhatIF said... I'm glad you have a DE plan forming if you need it, but I sure hope you don't. This is your year, Kate!

B. said...

I've got my directions all printed out and ready to go. See you tomorrow!

irrationalexuberance said...

Its soo nice to hear you sounding so much in the driver's seat. It really seems as if you are handling this on your terms, and at your pace, and I'm thrilled about it.
Have fun in boston manana!

Kate said...

Yay for insurance covering nearly all of the meds. That's quite the awesome deal!
What does the mestinon do in your protocol? I've only ever heard of it being used for myasthenia gravis treatment, and didn't come across it in my infertility treatment readings at all. Now you've got me curious!
Hope the new protocol gets you your sticky baby! And that you have a lovely hike. I always like hearing all about it afterwards.