last night I told my darlin' that since this late period stuff is so unusual for me, it was giving me renewed hope, real hope, and that if this turned out to be negative that I was afraid I would face a farther drop than usual- but you know what? it is more a feeling of resignation, sort of an "of course" feeling. With some swear words, you know, because I am kate. Sad, yes, disappointed, hell yes (imagine that in big font). But not surprised. And since I pulled this particular miracle out of the air once, I hoped to again-- and I think that makes it harder too, as I mentioned before....and now, I move on.
So---- I'll call the clinic this morning. But I imagine I'll do baseline stuff tomorrow or thursday. And hope that the coast is clear to use this cycle with meds again.
Kate-- about the progesterone, when they do injectables for sure (no idea about clomid) they support with progesterone because your own body is so fucked up by then, and since in IVF cases eggs are not truly ovulated out of their follicles,but sucked out, it is not clear if the usual corpus luteum progesterone engines will work the way they are "supposed" to to provide the progesterone needed for early pregnancy prep and support. So most clinics give suppositories or gel or pills or shots. I think that no one wants to Not do it and be wrong, and since it does not hurt, why not? I know different studies show different things, but I think that since all clinics I know of do this, everyone is erring on the safe side. So no, I was not tested to be low, it is the protocol (injectables) that made me use them. When I was on clomid (same clinic), no progesterone during the luteal phase. But of course, I did not get pregnant. If I had, I have no idea if they would have added it to the mix after a positive.
To all of you: thank you. thank you thank you for holding out hope for this one for me. Your support, as always, humbles me, and makes my heart bigger.
Let's try again, shall we?