10 November 2009

Letting the big one go

So. I go back up tomorrow morning to look again. We are letting the lead follicle (already 19mm) go in hopes of bringing some of the smaller ones along for an IVF. My E2 is at 1796 and the follicle sizes are all in the car on the back of a scrap piece of paper, but there are just enough "possible" to warrant continuing stims and antagon, and we'll just have to wait and see.

I am over the moon for Traci of If Optimist for her fabulous ultrasound confirmation of her 2 7w monsters, and for Sprogblogger for finally getting her dang period so she can get on with this DE cycle and motherhood thankyouverymuch.

And Happy Birthdays to my sweet Alyssa and to Sprogblogger, and to Sesame Street... 2 of the 3 are 40 today I think.

And
thanks to all of you for pulling for me this cycle. I turned the corner from sad and blue to actually laughing today over the absurdity of it all-- this is such silliness really, how much I want to control this! and oh, how little I can actually do anything about.. a good reminder I suppose. I am along for this ride, I'm not really driving.
Maybe we'll know more tomorrow, maybe not.
Trying to stay flexible. But oh, how I am wishing for sleep.

13 comments:

Kate said...

Fingers crossed - sounds promising!

IF Optimist, then... said...

The one lead follicle will go the way of the tortoise and the hare. The tortoise won the race and so will you. Hoping and praying the wait will be all worth it. Remember that many times when you aren't the one driving you are surprised by going to the best places you have visited. Thanks for the well wishes. The monsters and I will be rooting for you every day.

sprogblogger said...

Argh. Thank you for your good wishes, & know that I'm sending some right back at you. Hoping this works for both of us, since I still have that weird dream of us having little ones at just the same time.

Jenn said...

Sweet Kate,

So very sorry I have gone missing and in the process missed what was going on with you!

Sounds like this cycle is something special....I don't know..I just have this feeling for you.

I am dubbing this your "magical cycle"...in hopes that it will all work out! Sending some magical follie growing dust!

Also sending you the warmest, sweetest and most positive hugs ever!

Nic said...

I think that is very sensible to let your big one go. At least this gives you a chance to go for IVF. Must be hard though. Wishing you loads of luck for this cycle. x

Searching for Serenity said...

Being a backseat driver is really challenging, isn't it? It's hard to just sit back, look out the window and enjoy the ride.

Hoping for a promising appointment tomorrow.

Thinking of you.

Melissa said...

Fingers are tightly crossed for you!!

Illanare said...

Keeping fingers and toes crossed for you, lovely Kate.

Jem said...

Mr. Jem and I are constantly telling ourselves to enjoy the process, especially as so much is out of our control.

I'm just glad you are back to laughing. Do get plenty of rest and be good to yourself.

meinsideout said...

I am glad to hear about your laughter - it is hard to find some days.

Mad Hatter said...

Sleep well, sweet Kate. I'll be thinking of you and your lovely follicles tomorrow.
Love,
Maddy

Maredsous said...

Kate, hope this cycle is the one and glad that you are now feeling better about the situation. As in most things in life, when you stop worrying and trying to control situations, everything works out.

Wishing you peaceful and pleasurable dreams.

Michele said...

I'm playing catch up... I'm thinking of you...