27 November 2009

negative

and yeah, I feel like shit.
december is off so next cycle won't be until january.
big sad kate. damn it.

40 comments:

Illanare said...

I'm so, so, SO sorry, lovely Kate. I was hoping so much for you that this would be the one that was.

My heart breaks for you.

Be good to yourselves.

Amber said...

Nothing I can say right now will make this better. I get that. But just know that there are a lot of people out there thinking of you and feeling your pain... I'm sorry!

Nic said...

Oh shit Kate. I am so sorry. I am so disappinted and upset for you. I was so hoping and wishing this would be it.
Take care, remember we are here for you.
Nic x

Michele said...

dammit to hell. dammit dammit dammit

Joannah said...

I am so sorry, sweet friend. I wish this wasn't so hard for girls like us.

((BIG HUGS))

just me, dawn said...

I am so sorry, i wish I could give you a hug.

Kate said...

Damn. I was so praying that your beta would be positive even after those HPTs.
Life's just not fair!

Mo and Will said...

Oh Kate, I am so sorry.

Mo

What IF? said...

no No NO NOOOO, universe, why weren't you paying attention?!

This outcome is so unfair; I want to feed the freakin' wrong wolf today.

Sending you strength and hope that a New Year cycle will be the new beginning you so deserve.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry Kate

B. said...

Dear Kate, I'm so sorry. It's unfair, and it sucks, and I want break something and shout at the universe, but I know that wouldn't help. Please be good to your heart. Take the time to mourn, and know that you're loved.

Future Mum said...

Oh Kate, I'm so so sad to hear your news, sorry from the bottom of my heart that this wasn't to be...poor love, nurture yourself with good food and rest and love. I hope all our love from various places keeps you warm inside in this sad hour. Big hugs x

Jules a.k.a. Julie said...

I'm so very sorry my friend. I pray the sorrow is erased soon by renewed hope for January. I'll be cheering you on, Kate. Big hugs and be good to yourself!

IVF 40+ said...

Oh I am so sorry, Kate. So very sorry.
EB

Jem said...

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!! Say it ain't so! I am so sorry for your negative. Words can't express.

You are such a positive person, I hope you keep the glimmer of light even when you must be feeling so low.

K said...

This bites. I had so hoped for you...so so hoped. I am sorry my dear, and I wish I could waive a magic wand. Please take care of yourself, you are strong.

Rain Child said...

My heart goes out to you! I am so sorry!

Grade A said...

Sending hugs. I am so sorry, Kate.

alyssa said...

i'm so sorry, kate. i love you.

Melissa said...

oh kate...i have no words. Sending you love and healing thoughts.

invitroveritas said...

So, so sorry. Three words that don't say nearly enough. Thinking of you.

Mad Hatter said...

(((HUG)))
I am so sad to hear.
So sorry.
We are here with you.
Love,
Maddy

Pundelina said...

Fuckdamn.

I am so very sorry Kate.

:o(

IF Optimist, then... said...

Heartbroken. GDamnit this just really really fucking sucks. Why? What the hell? This isn't right. It isn't fair. I want to kick things and punch holes in the fabric of the universe and still none of those things would be enough.

I wish I could just make it better. I wish I could make it right. I am so sorry sweetie. Please accept my virtual hugs and a backrub and footrub and lots of tears and strong drinks and many soft words reminding you how wonderful you are, how admired you are, how creative and smart you are and how the earth is a better place simply because you are on it.

sprogblogger said...

Oh Kate, I am so very sorry. Nothing I can think of to say (or scream) expresses my pissed-off-sorriness enough. Please know that I'm thinking of you, and holding you in my heart, and raging at the Universe on your behalf, because this just aint fair and I hate it.

sarah said...

((((HUGS))))

Barefoot said...

Nothing to say except I'm so sorry. Thinking of you.

musicmakermomma said...

Kate, I'm so sorry. I haven't been a very good bloggy friend lately - my commenting has sucked, but know that I'm always following along with you. Right now there is nothing good to say, but I am hoping that we both end up cycling with excellent results in January. New year, new babies, good omen for sure.

alyssa said...

sweet, sweet kate, i'm so very sorry. i love you.
xxx

Elizabeth said...

Sucks, sweet Kate -- just sucks. What ever else is there to say. I'm holding you and yours in my heart, wishing I could do anything more, anything useful. I hope you can be easy on yourself -- take it slow and easy. Peace. Love,
Elizabeth

Eileen said...

I'm so sorry girl :-(. *BIG HUGS*

Billy said...

Dear Kate.
I am so very much sorry.
Wish I could do more than just say I'm sorry and send a big hug.
~hugs~

Jenn said...

words can't express my anger, sadness and hurt for you my sweet friend!!! I am just so sorry.

Fuck - this just plain out bites the big one!

I wish I could come over...take you for a slow and quiet walk. Give you a big hug and just be there for you hon!

Please know my heart is aching with you!

Much love sweetie

bb said...

Very sorry. I know there is nothing to say to make it feel better right now. Love and hugs to you.

MMR said...

Nothing I can say can make it feel better! We aren't cycling again until the new year too. My body needs a rest! Hopefully, you can spend this time for you and get ready for next time. Take care of yourself!!!

SassyIfLady said...

I'm sorry - that sucks. I hate IF! I'll be doing it in Jan. too. Take care. Hugs!

K said...

Words don't suffice. *hugs* I'm so so sorry.

sassy said...

I hate these limbo times. We're going to have to stick it out until February as well. ):

Searching for Serenity said...

FACK! (can I swear here?)Because I want to yell that really loud.

*hugs*, my dear.

Dirk said...

What terrible news. I'm sorry you have to go through the grieving, and another round. Good luck.