16 November 2009

planting seeds

Seeds are planted at the dark of the new moon. And today is that day. The prime day for planting, and these next two weeks are prime weeks for growing as the moon grows. So, I am hopeful!

2 embryos, a 6 cell A- and a 5 cell C. All 5 retrieved were mature, 4 fertilized, but 2 fertilized abnormally (one with two sperm like last time, the other just listed as "abnormal").

For those of you into the details:
Bladder management sucked today, but I peed 4 times, small amounts, trying to get comfortable. I swear my bladder is the size of a thimble.

Started driving at 9, got there at 10:40 or so and they recognize us now so checking in means just saying good morning, peed, then peed again. Then peed as they took us back (oh how very difficult to pee small amounts!). Got a great hug from Deb our nurse from the last round, was taken into the room to state my name and intention and to meet the nurse in training, undressed and got the PIO shot. The shot sucks rocks, but compared to the bladder it was not awful. I do not envy anyone who does more than two of those injections a cycle, I've used up both sides. Friday's side is still sore. And then... waited. waited. waited for the doc. My lovely nurse went to scout him out and I got dressed and peed a dixie cup's worth again (bless the scheduling person for letting me use the staff bathroom, she understood my duress)- then back in the room-- sweet Sharon (my favorite nurse) came back with the nurse in training, some hair nets and face masks and the news that doc#1 was tied up and sweet doc#2 would do the transfer. BLESS HER. So, onward! Then things went in fast forward-- ultrasound tech came in, doc came in, embryologist, they positioned me, dropped the table bottom, verified who I am and all my numbers, gave me the embryo report (whew!), then the speculum went in while the US tech pushed so hard on my bladder I almost cried, but it all worked out and I heard more than usual about the process since the doc was telling the nurse in training what she was doing and why and it all went fine. The doc was great with the catheters and the US tech was great communicating with me, and then I got to see them, my two fireflies right exactly where they were meant to be. In the middle of the middle of me.
15 minutes later I peed! Whoo hoo! Best thing ever. Then I could concentrate on enjoying knowing the two little ones are inside me right this very moment.


So, with all the peeing, I bet you're wondering, ok Ms. Big Gulp, exactly how much did you drink? 1 normal sized bottle of water. Thimble I tell you....thimble.

Then, home via acupuncture while my sweetie went grocery shopping, so dinner is in the oven and will smell great soon Moroccan chicken somethingorother that smells divine....

My wonderful observation of the day? As we drove through the most beautiful landscape, I saw dark clusters at the tops of a lot of the piney trees--and after many miles and straining my eyes and guessing (birds? no..), I finally realized they are pinecones! Still up top, clustered into knots in just the highest branches. The bottom branches are already bare of them.

And,
I am reading this magnificent book that I started this morning- Pema Chodron's Taking the Leap. The first chapter includes a discussion of how in any moment, we have tendencies toward anger/fear and tendencies toward love/acceptance. A father tells his son this in a parable with two wolves, two wolves that live inside us. The son asks his father which one will win, and the father answers, whichever I feed.

Today, I will feed the wolf of love and acceptance. You know why. That is the wolf that needs to win.

22 comments:

Amber said...

So glad I found your blog! I'm praying for your BFP this cycle! I think it's definitely about time... I just lost a pregnancy at 8 weeks and it's tough.

Kim said...

sounds like the transfer went perfectly. isn't it so nice when you have the dr's and nurses around you that are your favorites? i swear it makes a world of difference.

my favorite blood lady just happened to be there assisting on my transfer day since they were so busy. she is by far my favorite and i swear she is good luck.

congratulations on being pupo and i wish you a healty and sane 2ww!!!

sprogblogger said...

Come on, fireflies!!!

Jenn said...

My sweet Kate,

I am there with you in spirit - we are both in our jammies with a heaping bowl of popcorn just hanging out watching sappy movies all day!

I am sending all my love, serenity and positive thoughts to your little ones and you as well.

Here's to them holding on tight!!!!!

meinsideout said...

hope, hope, hoping

Mad Hatter said...

You know what I think is wonderful? That your post makes your day sound absolutely romantic - so much so that I'll bet you any fertile myrtles reading this are jealous and wish they could have IVF, too! :-) I love how wonderful it all sounds (except the bladder challenges and painful injections) and now you are cozy at home with your darlin' and your moroccan chicken and your book while your fireflies twinkle inside you. Wishing you your heart's wish!!
Love,
Maddy

Kate said...

So glad to see that your two hung in there for transfer! Chill out, and we'll keep on praying for you.

IF Optimist, then... said...

Sending to you a midnight wish of burrowing and sprouting and growing for your two little seedlings. Hope you had a great evening, that the dinner tasted as good as it sounded. I wish you a great day tomorrow, take care of yourself.

Pundelina said...

I'm so glad you made it to transfer Kate - hoping that one (or both) of the fireflies are sticky bugs and decide to hang around for 8.5 months.

I shall also feed the good wolf - what a beautiful allegory that is.

x

just me, dawn said...

praying that those embies snuggle in tight. rest relax and feed the wolf of love.
great post.

SassyIfLady said...

Great post. It gives me hope. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers for the next two weeks. Take care!

Future Mum said...

Hello Kate,
Sending you and your little embies warm and loving thoughts, may they settle in and stay with you xxxx

K said...

Thinking of you and hoping your embryos hold on tight. So happy you made it to transfer. Rest up.

Jules a.k.a. Julie said...

I was thinking of you all day yesterday. I'm just catching up from the bedrest following transfer. I second the sprouting and planting thoughts! Peace as you enter the 2ww. At least we can go it together.

B. said...

Stick, little fireflies, stick. Kate's going to be an amazing mommy, so you really do want to stay and get to know her. She'll take you for hikes and show you how beautiful the world can be.

Happy PUPO, Kate, and I hope the TWW passes smoothly and quickly.

Phoebe said...

I'm a big fan of embryo transfers on the new moon! Best of luck to you and wishing you lots of embryo sticking thoughts.

PIO shots suck, but there are other things that suck more, so I always reminded myself of that.

I love Pema. Keep feeding the love to your fireflies!

Barefoot said...

Congratulations! I am praying that your two little fireflies nestle in nice and good. Now I'm off to the bathroom after reading about your bladder adventures.....

Billy said...

Love it when they have someone in training and you get to hear all the explanations :-)
Crossing my fingers for you're lovely two little embies to implant!
And the parable at the end :-).

karen alonge said...

sending you some virtual wolf treats for your Wolf of Love and Acceptance.

They seem to look a lot like chocolate candy corn, for whatever reason ...

Jem said...

What a beautiful, thoughtful post. I will check out that Pema Chodron book. One of her audio books helped me through my ordeal with melanoma 9 years ago.

Michele said...

OOHHHH!!! 2 babies on board!!! Please stick little ones! Stick little twin embryos!!!

Brooke said...

What a beautiful post. I hope this is it for you, and that those fireflies stick around for the duration!

Good luck!