04 March 2009

rookie mistake

One bruise-- a rookie mistake, a quick jab in a rush in a bathroom at work (sounds naughty) but really, I did not look well enough and since I am down a few pounds my usual cushion is smaller and... as soon as I pulled the needle out I knew. 

Otherwise, headachy, getting tired faster, a few twinges in my innards but really, I'm ok so far. It is weird to think of stimming without suppression--who knows what is going on in there! Sweet commenters, thank you-- not sure I would say I have inner peace, or clarity, or a good attitude but I am trying to stay calm(er), and seeing if I can stay positive. Friday will help me a lot if things look good. I tell myself that this will turn out better this time around, and I am hopeful it will-- but really?  how do I know? I don't. I just hope. I'm a hoper from way back.

At the library now with two friends to write-- will shoot up in the bathroom here slowly and carefully-- and-- happily before and after I'll be working a bit on my novel. Ciao.

5 comments:

Maredsous said...

Can't wait to hear about your follies on Friday. You know it has to go better this time. I am sure EFS won't happen twice.

Grade A said...

Shooting up in the bathroom will be a great story to share when this all works out. I am hoping and wishing that it will. And I agree with Maresdous: I think you touched bottom last time. Always good to know the parameters. As my friend says: "when you touch bottom, kick off from it and float back up to the top."

Grade A said...

oops-"Maredsous"

Sarah said...

i've been shooting up since 2005 and still get bruises sometimes. i envy your lack of cushion though!

Joannah said...

I have a couple of real ugly bruises on my belly. Oh, well...

I hope tomorrow's US looks really good!!!