Just got my results from today's surprise blood test:
"A really good number" they say.
Holy shit folks, this means I am most definitely pregnant.
(The IF in me hastens to add, I mean, in this moment)
did I mention-- holy shit? no?
I am completely stunned.
The folks up at Dartmouth whooped and hollered.
I cannot think of a nicer thing to hear than that. Last time they saw me I was in tears.
This? this is good.
My next beta is wednesday. Then, if all goes well, again on friday. Then maybe next friday (10th) or the following monday (13th) we'll do a scan to see where things are. But let's not get ahead of ourselves. Damn this IF/IVF/ART hootenany for stealing my ignorant bliss.
This is the crazy kind of happy. The kind of happy even when you know better. Please let me be right.