So my temperature was up .5 degrees this morning...
EWish cervical mucus yesterday (I was thinking YAY for the stim-stimulated cervical mucus)
now, with this unfortunate temperature rise I am thinking: early ovulation? for the love of all that is holy, WTF?
maybe neither. Waiting to hear back from my super coordinating nurse, but feeling very skeptical.
THERE IS MORE TO LIFE THAN THIS
I know it, I remember, sometimes I even see it or feel it or taste it
but this really is consuming, this crazy attention to biochemical minutiae. And oh, the powerlessness of it. I am a bystander-- things are just happening. I cannot impact the outcome.
You know how some colleges and universities give credit for life experience? We'd all have honorary WTF IF PhDs.
Update: talked with Sharon, and yes, as she said, the horse may be out of the barn but if so, we'll know tomorrow. And no, you're not crazy it is possible. And if you've ovulated, we will know better what to do next cycle. And she said so sweetly "you are doing everything you possibly can to make this work, kate". Which I think was just about exactly what I needed to hear. So here's to an unexpected night of making the best of it just in case and a god awful early morning tomorrow to get there for the appointment (and shots in a parking lot somewhere). Maybe I ovulated, maybe I haven't. And I'll let you all know what happens. Wishing for an easy button. But also? Honestly? Vaguely amused. Amused a little for believing for one moment that anything about any of this would go in a textbook way for me...um, maybe or maybe not so much.