having talked myself down from the place of whatthefuckness,
here's the plan:
stim tonight and tomorrow morning then
IM trigger tomorrow night
for an IUI saturday morning
my E2 was 1303
official follicle count from nurse's summary notes (including just the ones of note):
L 13,11,10....and others
so by saturday they hope for 4 big juicy ones.
I'm relieved as hell I did not ovulate.
I'm frustrated as hell about not catching this cycle in time to possibly use those other follicles in some way that would increase my chances of success (say, IVF).
And I am hopeful as hell since the barely 5% chance of success IUI worked last time.
Through some miracle maybe it will work again.
And if not, there's always next time.